Don Lorenzo

Leap of Faith

2011-10-13T16:12:00.000-07:00

You've got to move. You've got to get yourself going towards the ideal. That's all there is in life. I wanted to create a post that totally disparaged the people who I have allowed just enough room in my life to hang be, because they did. I won't. They got all the publicity they deserved when it happened. I forgive them. I understand that what happened is a part of my experience in this life, and I cherish it for what it's worth and for what it's doing for me.

Genesis 50:20 put is as eloquently as I have ever experienced this statement "You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people." Starting with my own.
This life was meant to be lived. I found myself sharing my philosophy of the fact that I believe I am already dead with someone dear to me. This was of great shock to him and once he said " I think that's what losers think" I had to think. What do you mean by that? And then I wondered why he would say something like that. "I think it means you've given up, that there's nothing to live for". Unknowing I had. My experience with death so close and so early on was meant to be a lesson to me, that I must make haste with this time I was given, and I must make plenty with the talents and love which God has bestowed on me. Instead for some time I chose to use it as a reason to be emotionless an reason to cry I reason to wonder why i had less, and that simply wasn't the case. Even today as I find myself in what would seem like the most daunting situation a I have ever face, I find myself emboldened unto new heights and empowered to face the next steps with a blessed assurance unlike I have ever felt.
Today I checked into a Shelter for transitional youth. Is that what I am? That would seem to be the reality of this. I have rededicated my life to God, and I know that God has placed the gift of "feeling" "entertaining" "singing" and above all Inspiration into my life. That is what I'm meant to share, and that's what I will share with everyone. With all and everything that I do I will empower people to greatness, by most definitely aspiring and acting towards greatness in my life. I give myself 90 days or less to be here. I'm currently working at a Record Label to record my mixtape/album and then I will get a part time job so that I can get my own place. I called about a place on Hollywood Near Hollywood and Highland and it was $2000 for a 1bedroom! YIKES.

Action plan:
Secure a Part Time Job for $$
Save enough $$ to move to Hollywood
Market for the label
Write everyday
Record Songs for my demo

The meeting of these goals will serve as my birthday present to myself this year.

Realty check.

2011-10-08T16:44:00.001-07:00

October 7, 2011

I have this overwhelming sadness in my spirit that is beginning to bleed into life. It feels like everyone I care about is turning on me, and I am forced to wonder what the part that I play in this whole life is. Some part of me says that It’s this deep seated resentment I have towards myself for not being the man that I know that I am to be. Right now I have no money, no job, no girl, no car, no place and what feels like nobody. I wish I were capable of crying, and I’m trying to force/allow some tears to experience catharsis….to no avail. Tonight I told my twin sister whom I love so dearly “Fuck You”. I didn’t really feel to bad about it when I did it. It seemed like the perfect representation of exactly what I felt at the time. I wonder if I have gone too far, if our relationship is beyond repair…..
A couple of days ago I pressed my aunt’s buttons until she “excused me” from the office. Whatever that means. I had been thinking of resigning for a few days, and I saw my out. We haven’t discussed that face to face, and I can definitely feel the coldness freezing in my heart towards her…but for no good reason. This is something that I brought upon me.

I feel like I have a great grip on reality when it comes to everyone but me, and I just can’t seem to understand why. What am I doing right? What am I doing wrong? All that bullshit doesn’t even matter to me right now because it’s about what I have to do. Music. I’ve played myself for far too long and haven’t given myself the chance to feel and live the life that I want to live. THAT is why I am representing hatred, and anger to all those around me…because I feel that way towards myself. No more. I forgive you L’aurence for not treating your life with the care and concern that you treated others. I forgive you L’aurence for experimenting with different roads in life, you’ve gained useful knowledge. I forgive you L’aurence for “checking out” of the “working world” to see what it means to truly skirt by. Now, I beseech you to live your bliss. It is only then can you give that same joy you will feel to those who mean most to you in life. Take your time, and create an existence worth loving, worth living, worth watching, worth caring and worth your time.

I need time away. I need time away from everyone I know in this moment. Loretta, Teresa, Chico, Marveina, L’aurelei, Vanessa, Freddy, Arturo, Sharla, Bridget etc…I need to just focus on myself right now. I will immerse myself into music without a plan B. This is do or die. I’m tired of being dead. I want to live. I want to grow, and I want to be a resource to those I love.

Perspective

2011-10-02T12:09:00.000-07:00

One of the reasons I'm using this blog is to review and improve my writing and my life. Right now, I'm in a space where I want to see results fast. I'm ready to be living in my own place, driving my own car, making my own millions and just really creating the life that I know I am destined to live. Thinking logically and critically, I do not have to wait until tomorrow to start designging this life. More on that later...
One of the things that I have been taking note of are the people I allow into my perception of life. In examining a few of the friendships/relationships that I have I've encountered a bit of a paradox. These people are my friends, and I have chosen them to be in my reality. Why should these people be anythiing less than amazing, supportive, intelligent, honest & caring? They shouldn't. I won't accept anything less. This really has left me wondering what purpose certain relationships served...ah well It is time to prune the friendship bonsai and make sure that they new leaves have room for growth. I'm going over all these people with a fine tooth comb, and where I can give I will allow to grow, and where I can't I must leave alone. Personal mastery is the journey that I am on and I look forward to experiencing and sharing it

Baby, I'ma be my Motivation.

2011-09-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

This week has been a dream. I'm working to get my motivation back and I have to say I've been doing a damn good job (yeah I too my own horn...beep beep motherfuckers). My nigga Arty invited me back to LMU to the 100th anniversary celebration this past Sunday. Too good. Too Good. Met up with a connection, the incredible Mr. Charles Mason (who originally recuited me to LMU) and there continued the path towards completing my degree. From there I obtained an appointment for Tuesday that went swimmingly. Between Mr. Mason, Linda Jorgenson, Roger Pardee & Mr. Milicevic ( yes, that many people) I was armed with all the tools to stage a comeback. Will I be able to finsih my degree? Yes. Am I in over my head? Maybe. Will this be the next chapter in the 2nd Greatest Story ever told? (I see you JC), Yes. In addition to this, my producer contacted me about some studio time and writing new records. Way too hyped to get back to laying tracks down...Look for the Mixtape #1 on 11/11/11. All new tracks, all new writing, all new flow. So many cats out there in the music world, and it's really time to show them how its done. I'm tempted to say that this is the beginning, but I wonder if that will diminish the work it took to obtain it. So I'll say that this is the progression. Hmmm...I might change the name of the Mixtape to "The Progression" Top it all off, I've found excellent properties that I am currently selling to my investors. So now that I've successfully acquired motivation for my action, the next step is to raise my determination..More on that Post Later.

2011-09-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

In continuing with the theme of success...I've got a couple of updates. Generated some interest with the new marketing that I have done, now I'm looking to get the motivation to convert these inquiries into checks. Having gone on a couple of listing appointments that didn't end in listings, I started to question: Where could I have done better? Each time I was afforded with an answer of unbelievable value...The most prominent lesson is something that I have heard from my mentor and various other sales technicians "Ask for the deal". Such a simple sounding concept, but one that up until recently didn't appear to have a practical application. Wasn't the very fact that I arranged an appointment, prepared marketing materials, and provided all the information that would lead one to deduce a sale enough? No. Most people want to be lead, and once you've lead them so far via road maps and street signs, it's time to ask them the quintessential question of any road trip or journey "Are we there yet?". Although this question seems annoying to the driver, it provides a point of practical assessment where one is forced to check the surrounding and determine how close (or far) our destination truly is. My focus has now distilled into the moment. What am I doing this moment to provide a serice? What am I doing this moment to generate income? What am I doing this moment to improve my life? What am I doing?...to quote my contemporary "Oh yeah, that's right I'm doing me....I'm living life right now man."
The Promises Section:
I will post at least once a week.
I will provide a weekley statistics report for all my goals.
I will mention the songs that catch my attention in my blog.
I will provide more information on success.
I will supply the reader with practical applications lofty concepts.
I will supply the reader with quotes that move me.

The Cost of Success Part 1

2011-08-04T20:11:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been enthralled with the idea of success. What does it mean to me to be successful? This question has lead me to many different avenues of answer. Success, in my opinion, means accomplishing what it is that one has set one's mind to do. In that respect, I want success. Well that opens another question for me, at what would I like to be successful? My goal in life is to be wildly successful at selling homes, create a financial Picasso that will allow me to create the music that I want to release to the world, live brazenly, die a legend and be remembered as an international mogul/sex symbol. Where does that start? Well, it starts with me enacting a plan to list the world, starting with homes in the Morningside Park Area of Inglewood. Tomorrow I will mail out 500 postcards expecting to generate at least 5 viable listings which I will then sell. I will keep you posted on how it goes....

ON ANOTHER NOTE

This week I realized the importance/definition/cost of friendship...true friendship. I have a friend that I have known for more than half of my life stole from me. I don't mean the friendly "Hey Bro, I borrowed your (insert new gadget/clothing item etc) hope you don't mind" that in and of itself is hilariously annoying, but a facet of friendship. Surprisingly, it wasn't shocking. There had previously been a pattern of this person, "getting over me". I chose to ignore it in the hopes that whatever "friendship" we had cultivated up until this point would drown out the desperation and greed that must have overtaken their soul. Bullshit. It's now crystal clear to me that no matter what is at stake, I can't afford to risk my well being for anyone who's ever proven that they've have anything but in mind. This isn't to say that I don't believe in 2nd chances, but much like any other game...3 strikes and you're out.

The Update.

2010-12-24T13:30:00.001-08:00

So it's been quite sometime since I posted on this site! I'm glad to be back. Lately my life has been very productive. It's seen a newfound interested in nature, beauty, my careers and love. I'm riding high on the fact that I just closed two deals in one week, what a blessing. Real Estate has been going exceptionally well for me, I've been able to find a balance between work, friends, and my intellectual pursuits. What puzzles me now, is being able to help my friends and family. Should I rush into playing captain save 'em again, or should I continue to stay in my own lane and ensure that I have the basic necessities for life? I'm really torn between those things. It seems that whenever I deliniate from the idea of getting myself to a stable place before I can look over and help others, that things go wrong for me. What must I change about my perception in order to make this work? I can't stand to see anyone hurting, and it's much more painful for those I care about. One part of me feels like I have no children, and thus no one is my responsibility, however the other portion feels that I have a duty even a moral obligation if you will, to ensure that my immediate family is taken care of. My aunt always tells me to PRO & CON a situation out, but in this one I always feel as if the PRO of Dimi, my family member, getting her life straight outweighs any con that might fall on me. In really looking at this I have to wonder if it's working at all... For someone who is as dead set as Dimi on not releasing ANY smidget of control in her life, when most of it is blatantly out of control, is puzzling to me. Rather than allow herself to be helped into what could be an exponentially better situation, she would rather hold onto where she is now. That's definitely her perogative, what I'm faced with now is a decision. Do I continue to reach out, even take matters into my own hands and wonder if I'll breakthough? Keeping on this path seems to be a great way to burn out...I've been there before, and like a Phoenix risen from that. I've had many do overs in life, and like the late great Michael Jackson said "This is It". I won't continue to kill myself, and by the grace of God come back, only to do it all over again. I won't. Well bloggers, I've got to read

What one thing are you exceptionally bad at?

2010-03-25T13:04:00.001-07:00

Giving Up

What it do?

How many countries have you traveled to?

2010-03-25T13:03:00.001-07:00

1- mexico! Went to Tijuana to build houses for disabled people and help repair a school school for underprivelaged youth....and then went to Cabo for Spring Break. Both some of the happiest times in my life!

What it do?

formspring.me

2010-03-25T12:55:00.001-07:00

What it do? http://formspring.me/DonLorenzo

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2010-03-16T14:05:00.001-07:00

What it do? http://formspring.me/DonLorenzo

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2010-03-16T13:48:00.001-07:00

What it do? http://formspring.me/DonLorenzo

New Music! New Connections

2010-02-14T11:29:00.000-08:00

What's up everybody? Things have been really hectic lately, Real Estate has picked up and I'm feeling a creative flow like I haven't felt in years. I'm just really excited about where I see everything going. With that being said, I've begun to work with a few new people who seem to really be on the same page as I musically. I'm really going to use the symbolism of this time (winter/spring) to reflect on what habits, relationships, and bad practices need to die so that new experiences, creativity and opportunity will Blossom.

So I feel things are going in a pretty decent direction musically. I've just been bouncing songs and beats back and forth with a new callaborator. Still talking with Jazzin World, seeing if there's anything that we can work on together. Right now I feel as if I just need to buckle down and get a solid album or mixtape going. My voice hasn't sounded better, and my mind is working really fast.

For some reason, I've been really inspired by Ke$ha's song "Tik Tok" lately. I really can relate to the party mode mindset, and really just being carefree. Props to her for her 7th week at #1.

Alright Fans ( I know you're out there somewhere haha) Here's what you can look forward to:
Regular Postings
New Material
A Product in the next 3 months!
A Release Date
Polls and Merch hehe
A Website!

Ehh

2009-09-21T12:08:00.000-07:00

So I haven't blogged in a minute. I've been talking to various family members about how I can move past this plateau in life and breakthrough to where I belong. Most of what I've been hearing has had to do with self-discipline and budgeting. I'm really beginning to take all this information to heart and understand that it's time to grow up. Granted, i've felt like an adult, at least emotionally since my Mother passed away, and in practice since I left for Universtiy in 2006. THere are so many things weighing heavily on my heart with regards to my accomplishments, but I'm putting all those things away and going forward with life. One thing I have been thinking about is splitting my blogs...but I simply ( I was gonna put here, don't have enough time) but the truth is that I do have time, I just have to make sure that what I'm doing with my time is beneficial for me. One of the reasons, I make time for this blog is because it's definitely a release for me. Even if NO ONE reads this, it does me good because I'm able to refer to different points in life and see how I've grow, or see where I can use some work.

My performance

2009-09-16T15:36:00.000-07:00

I have to say that in reviewing my performance as of late, I really need to step my game up. I feel as if I'm doing alot but things are breaking through so fast...I dont really even know if I should be typing about this here...so I'm gonna think about some things and get work done and then come back and type some more....

Strive for Outstanding.

2009-09-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

Remember in grade school how in addition to the letter grade you received that corresponded to the actual material, you received a grade on quality and effort? E=Excellent, O=Outstanding, S=Satisfactory and U=Unsatisfactory. What if you had to grade your progress, efforts, and overall quality of life/work. What would you give yourself? Okay, what would you do to improve on that grade? These are the things that have been on my mind lately.......

On Sunday, we had our annual Community Appreciation Day at Burton Chace Park in Marina Del Rey. I have to say that it went really well, there were tons of people the food was great and it was a wonderful atmosphere. While I was there I was talking to Sharon, who is an A&R rep with Universal Music took some time out to listen to my songs. It was so great to hear someone in the industry say that I was a good writer, and that she "could definitely hear this song on the radio". She also told me that she wanted me to finish it and let her hear it, so I definitely have to tweak it a bit and finish it sometime this week. Other things on my plate this week? I enrolled in a couple of courses at West Los Angeles college....just some online courses that I can try to dedicate some time to and fit inbetween working. I am going to focus and really see these courses through to an A. I know that I am capable of doing that, although I feel a bit rusty when it comes to schoolwork, I think I should just take some time out and "getter done" lol. I also spent the night at one of my best friend's apartment at Loyola Marymount. Kinda got me thinking about the college life again, and thinking about how everyone but me will be graduating this year. That's a little depressing, but at the same time I am doing well in my field and I am making a name for myself in Real Estate and music. Sometimes I think that I have to be famous just to offset these feelings of inadequacy with regards to school. Who knows? I always feel like I should be doing more, and that I should be doing a million things to get to this great place in life, but lately select literature and my gut feeling have been telling me otherwise. I feel that if I focus really hard on one thing and really concentrate my focus and effort towards it, that I will dominate whatever I choose....Ahh new subject

So I have an offer in on a property that my buyer's really like. I've been meditating on this offer being accepted for the past five days and we are going to get our response today. I'm really excited because it's a great property that is very fitting for these clients. I've also been working on this short sale that I have, and it's kind of a pain. These banks don't know regarding short sales, and while updating the system all previous paperwork was lost". What a crock. You mean to tell me that I have to fax millions of pages back to you, that were already processed, and we have an approval pending on the first loan for the 8th? Yikes. This sounds like it's go time again, and I'll have to not see the sun for a couple of weeks....

Well this week I will do my best to be on point with everything and to prove to myself that I am the best at what I do...My little cousin's school motto is "Strive For Excellence", well from now on, I'm going to "Strive for Outstanding".... Excellence can be defined as " very good of its kind. Valuable in quality" where as outstanding is "standing out from a group. Marked by eminence and distinction".

New Marketing and Business.

2009-08-20T14:55:00.000-07:00

I'm not really sure what to write, but I'll just write some of the things that are on my mind. We have a company picnic coming up and I really want to be the agent who sales the most raffle tickets. I've really been feeling like now is the time to cement myself as the Top Producer here in the office. I'm constantly looking for ways of improving myself and my performance. I'm taking this management correspondence course (mainly because I'm starved for a certificate and recognition) to sharpen my skills, and become more valuable to the company. I've also enrolled myself into a couple of business courses at West LA. I think that I'm feeling the burn of my twin sister graduating. I shouldn't because there really isn't a comparison and we are going down very different paths in life, but I'm human. And a twin at that.

Some of the other things that have been on my mind is going really heavy on my marketing and acquiring new business.

2009-08-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

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2009-08-18T21:45:00.000-07:00

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When I get that feeling I gotta sing.

2009-08-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

So I just wrote up another offer for my clients. We're competing against three all cash offers, but I'm not scared. It's $50k above asking price...granted there are concessions, but hey who doesn't negotiate closing costs for their client? I'm really going to be praying and meditating on this offer going through for them, they are a great couple who deserves a wonderful house...In other news I spoke to Isaac today in regards to my music career...What? Right, I know i was supposed to just be focusing on Real Estate, but who says I can't check up on things... Anyways so the dude he's been calling my competition, as far as their label goes, has his myspace all decked out and has his songs on iTunes. I'm starting to get the bug again, or should I say it's becoming harder to contain it. I'll start writing more again this week and really taking time to meditate and bring creative energy back to my focus. Things are really moving along and I am beyond excited about what's in store for this year.

This is the Life

2009-08-18T11:16:00.001-07:00

How's everyone out there in the blogosphere? Hopefully doing good... What's new with me? Well I sold out new listing n 6315 Alviso in Windsor hills. That's really exciting because I wanted to break into the Windsor Hills/View Park market, and get those listings. Last week I was really, really sick and it was terrible for me to even get out of bed! I haven't been that sick in a long time, and it really made me miss my parents who were soooo attentive and almost babyish lol. But this time around Loretta Made me Chicken Vegetable soup, and Tia brought me dayquil and made me tea and whatnot....but yeah I just figured that I would write about that for the hell of it. In other news, I realize that I am getting old. I know that I am only 20, but I think that for the things that I have been through in life, and the intelligence that I've been cultivating that I need to really start acting like I'm 30. We'll see how all that goes.

The Champ is here.

2009-08-04T08:52:00.001-07:00

Today is another day of renewal, I will take how I feel and really push forward towards my goals. Yesterday was the birthday of a once REALLY close friend of mine, and I had absolutely no contact with them...okay, so I sent a text message, but it wasn't returned. I have to let them go, I am only going to keep things in my consciousness that move me forward and that have positivity beaming all around them. It's august 4, 2009 and there's no more time for games. The year is almost over, and I have goals and quotas that I need to meet. So here are something I want done by the end of the year

I want to be in excellent shape by my birthday. That means I want abs, and a nice trim fit figure. Bigger biceps, the works.
I want my own home. I'm not really sure where, I just know that I want my own place before i'm 21.
I'm going to complete at least 10 sales by the end of the year. Selling 10 homes in 5 months isn't really so hard it's 2 transactions for each month and it's very feasable.
I want a new car, or I want to deck my current vehicle out.
I want to be a millionaire in net-worth with at least a couple hundred thousand in the bank. This is what I have to concentrate on the hardest.
Ideally I'd like to start work on an independent album that I will be playing/releasing on the day of my birthday party. I think that scares me the most.
I want to strengthen my friendships, and be a provider to my family.
I want to be an active participant in church

On here I will document my progress. Some say I may really lofty goals, but I think if you dream it you can be to or have anything that you want. There is no limit to what I can achieve and it's time to silence the critics. This is L'aurence going back to business, taking things up 10 notches, and letting everyone know who I really am.

Short but sweet

2009-08-03T04:09:00.000-07:00

Hey readers! I have decided to call this 'short but sweet' because I am blogging from my blackberry and it can be tiresome to type. Right now I'm at a point where I can wholeheartedly say that I am seeing the manifestation of my thoughts, wishes, hopes and beliefs more so than ever. There is nothing that is out of my reach, nor is there a thing for which I am afraid to reach. Stay focused on your burning desire, and watch the rest flooow..$$
Nolite!

Important

2009-07-27T18:14:00.000-07:00

I titled this important, because I felt like there were many important things that I needed to say...but I dont really feel like writing about them right now. I'm at a point where I am have basically transitioned my facebook account into a more business-oriented account. I am in the process of doing this for twitter also. What I think that I will end up doing is having 2 diff accts for blogspot and twitter so that I can maintain the difference in these worlds of mine....

Revitalization

2009-07-25T16:14:00.000-07:00

There have been a number of things that have really worked hard to steal my joy. I think I just need to release them now, and work on getting a more blissful state of mind. My MAC has been on the fritz for about a week now. I dont know why it just stopped working, but it is really a bummber because I have most of my client's files on there, and I have been making offers this week like crazy. Two of our offers weren't accepted. That was really a downer...I've been able to keep my clients motivated and ready to make more and better offers each time. I know that this week they will be in escrow, and i am very pleased about that. I have been thinking about continueing the course that I started for the Stratford Career insittute, but ever since I found out that they were not accredited there has really been no motivation behind it. OH! I did have some good news to share! An asset manager asked me to do BPO on a Million Dollar Property in Baldwin Hills!!! He was so impressed with my work and response time that he told me that he would forward my information to his superious so that I may obtain the listing at the appropriate time! I surely hope that it will be soon! That will be a great opportunity for marketing and for really just getting things together for me! I want some order in life right now. I am going to create a schedule and stick to it for this upcoming week, and see where it takes me! I think because of the weird turns that my life took, I really seek stability in anything that i do. What's really crazy is that most of what I choose to do doesn't really lend itself to stability. First of all I'm a Real Estae Agent, and there's no guaranteed paycheck on that. For that past couple of years, I have been able to make a livign for myself, but I Really want to take things to the next level financaily. Next is music, I have really been on an off with my music, mainly because I am not so confident about my voice sometimes...and the cigarettes...I'm around alot of smoke! Well I feel better already so I think that I will just take this new found energy and comprise a schedule that I can feel great about sticking to.
Talk to everyone later!!
PS>
I will have more to post about later tonite, my competition at the small label that I was recording with is growing their fanbase!! ahhh!!

Blogging For Real

2009-07-17T14:35:00.000-07:00

I think I make too many promises for my blog to be updated and don't really follow through with them. I hope that no1 thinks that it's indicative of my personality other than the fact that I'm pretty busy...I am going to make the blogger.com my home page and we'll see what happens. I also need a new media card for my blackberry because I cant seem to save anymore pics/videos for you guys...

Well Anyways!

The Atmosphere of Coffee Shops

2009-06-28T15:26:00.000-07:00

I don't know what it is....maybe it's the fact that my mother made coffee every morning in the house, the fact that I've always loved a very diverse group, or the fact that it's a meeting place where people from all walks of life converge regardless or need or intention....I really love coffee shops. So much so that I've worked at a couple...One of the more famous chains Starbuck's, and the Lion's Den, which is Loyola Marymount University's version of Starbucks. Working in those places really opened my eyes to cornucopia of lifestyles, beliefs, and ways of interaction. There were people who preferred not to communicate in words, but used smiles and tips to convey their appreciation. There were people who loved to talk up a storm, who saw their daily visits to their local coffee shop as a release of therapy before and sometimes after work. Still there were other people who loved the "control" that they believed they had over the works and made needless demands...I loved it all. I tend to look at life as more of a Sociology experiment. I'm always watching, always observing and always wondering what I will see/do next. Still another aspect that I love about coffee shops is their bubbly introspective "rock" music that they tend to play...that blends in perfectly with their old rusty Rnb/soul/blues cuts from some of the greats. See peopel, it's a certain kind of person who frequents a coffee shop, who works in a coffee shop, who lives in a coffee shop. They are searching for something, fixated on the idea that they can be anyone whom they wish to anybody in here...lost, but always aware of who they are, or at least who they'd like to be,...

LOL too deep...gotta go

I'm bad...Chamon!

2009-06-27T13:37:00.000-07:00

Wow...what can I really say that hasn't already been said about Michael Jackson? As an artist, I really appreciated the way that he innovated music. Many people say that Madonna is the Recording Industry's Chameleon, but I think Mike gave her a run for her money. From his early years he explored Rnb/Funk/Soul Meldoies in the Jackson 5. They helped to shape what we call the "Motown Sound" and set the tempo for the many other artists who would explore the Rnb world. When Michael ventured out on his own, he truly took his music, his image, and his artistry to another level. Michael's solo albums blurred the color lines that were still pretty apparent in late seventies early 80's music. Mixing elements of dance, New Wave and Soul he crafted a unique style all his own. Michael's Album "Thriller" still remains the best-selling album of all time. Although little is known of Michael's children (with the exception of his son being named "Blanket") we do not have to look far to find his musical offspring. Many young Male artists are simply sliding right behind Michael's blueprint for Super Stardom....artists such as : Usher, Justin Timberlake, Chris Brown, NeYo just to name a few....have CLEARLY been influenced by the work of this great man. I mean just the severity of this in light of his comeback tour, is pretty heartbreaking....but there isn't just sadness. We can look to his last years of life as testament to his belief in himself, his gift, his fans, and his love for music. At 50 years old he appreciated the life his fans and fame and colleagues allowed him to lead. This is pretty remarkable considering that there are tons of negative things that came along with that. Some people say that he had to do this for the money, that simply isn't so. I am not in direct contact with his Finance department, not am I privy to any information that the general public isn't aware of...but I do know that he is Michael Jackson. If he would have asked all his fans to send him $1.00 his financial troubles would be over. If he would have contacted any major brand about doing a commercial, he'd have money for days, and if he would have put on this concert....he would have returned to glory. Unfortunately, we all didn't know how true the old adage that "art imitates life" was.....the title of his last tour? "This is it"....suddenly it takes on a new, darker meaning...

RIP

Michael Joseph Jackson 1958-2009

SOLD!

2009-06-16T19:33:00.001-07:00

Hello Everyone! I hope that everyone is having a really great day today...I sure am. This blog has seen the full range of my thoughts and emotions, and I am really proud that I have been able to keep things up with it!

Real Estate has always been very close to me. I would just like to say that over the past couple of days, I have had a great influx of business that I must attribute to the focus that I have really had lately. I have clients who are making a really strong offer on a property that I know will be accepted. They are a really young couple who I'm glad to have made their dreams of home ownership come true! I will post a congratulations for them when the offer is accepted! I also have successfully matched two good friends who are going into business together with a great lease property.

I wanted to share with you some of the thoughts that I know are contributing to this new wave of positivity:

"What you think about, you bring about- Simple enough, the main things that you hold onto in your mind are the things that you see...and vice versa. If you continue to keep certain negative people, habits, and ideals within your consciousness and sphere of influence, then you will constantly dwell on such things in thought
There is no such thing as "bad"- Don't take this and run with it...of course there's a right and wrong, that's a different debate..but when things happen that we don't necessarily plan for or think that are good (such as death, job loss, financial woes, bad news) you must always look at them for an opportunity to boost yourself away from your current situation
Pay yourself first- It's really easy to make sure that everyone around you gets taken care of and neglect yourself. It's also really easy to spend your money frivolously and get things that you want before the things that you need. That's not the way to go, you must always pay yourself. Get the things that you need, pay yourself. Take care of the things that you need to grow your business, to grow your skills. This does include taking care of your bills. When you don't pay, you're stealing from yourself in the form of late fees, derogatory credit marks, and stressing on the bills next month

This is really what I've been thinking about so far, I'm sure that there are more to come but these are the most important that I wanted to get out while I was thinking about it....

The Obama Tax Credit-First Time Homebuyers!

2009-06-12T15:12:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone...I've been searching a lot of internet articles and speaking with a lot of people in the Mortgage and Finance business lately and it seems that there's tons of misinformation out there about the Obama Tax Credit towards Buying a Home. Honestly this is a really great thing for those who are looking to purchase a home this year! How would you like someone to GIVE you $8000 towards the purchase of a new home? I thought so, we all would! Well if you purchase a home from now until November 20, 2009 when you file your taxes you will get an additional $8k with whatever return you would normally get. Another good thing? If you find that you owe the IRS a sum of money, whatever you owe for this year will be paid out of that tax credit and the balance sent to you! Even better news? If you purchase a home in a new Development you get an ADDITIONAL $10,000, that's $18,000 towards the purchase of your home! This Obama Tax Credit refers to first time home buyers...( legally you haven't owned a principal residence within the Last 3 years, you could even have owned a vacation home!) You must hurry though and take advantage of this market, as it wont last long! Most Recently in Late May the government has allowed this to become monetized, which means that you can use this for your closing costs and part of your down-payment! If you were on the fence about buying a home get off, now is your year to own a piece of Real Estate. Research shows that owning property is the key component of wealth building. Think about it: at this point home prices will most likely only go up. Granted this isn't the bottom of the market (which we saw around 6-8 months ago), but it is merely a few steps above and prices are still reasonable! Real Estate Moves in a cycle, and it will only begin to appreciate from here, so it's important to act now before things get too far out of your reach. If you have any questions, or would like to get your FREE Pre-qualification to see how much house you can afford you can e-mail me : Laurence@teresapetersoffice.com, or call me at (310) 665-1145 x8. I can't wait to make your dreams of homeownership a Reality!!!

Bloggin away

2009-06-10T13:36:00.000-07:00

Wow..there are really talented/creative people out there...So I assisted on a Listing Appointment in Santa Monica today ( I know, right?). It was a great experience watching the master do her work. It never ceases to amaze me how my Broker has such a wonderful way with people and with words! Normally you think anyone who is that successful at dealing with people must have some sort of mind-control thing going on, or at least they are selling snake's oil, but this is never the case with her. I admire the way she is abe to talk to people and help them to arrive at better conclusions, it really reminds me of my mom and how she just had a way with people...

In other news, I think that I really have to continue to strive towards excellence...have you ever felt like you're doing a bad impersonation of yourself? I have sometimes, especially when I look at my past accomplishments and weigh them against where I am in life today (Granted it's not a bad place, I'm one of the youngest/successful people in LA Real Estate :) ), but it's not exactly a fortune. I have decided that I am going to start paying myself what I am truly worth. I deserve to be treated every now and then....I dont know why that reminded me of my ex...She and I have been talking again lately, and I really do miss her. Maybe I just miss the company of a woman, who knows. I think It's a psychological thing about feeling like no one will ever love me unconditionally or as much as I care about them (probably because the 'rents are dead)...but eh, c'est la vie, no? I've also realized that I have to step my blogging game up thanks to a beautiful, witty and intelligent woman BougieApplebaum you can check her blog out here: http://www.bougieapplebum.com/

(PROMISE TO COME BACK TO MINE!) lol

Well off to get some work...

Quote du jour "When your attitude is right, the facts don't count"

Thinking On thoughts

2009-06-07T14:47:00.000-07:00

Well...I know that I haven't posted in quite sometime, but I haven't forgotten about you guys. (I say you guys, and I wonder how many people really read this. Just know that when I do become famous, I was already thinking about my fans :) ). Things have been going really well in Real Estate. I've begun to COMPLETELY step my game up. I have begun intensive internet marketing via Twitter and Facebook,(Follow me on Twitter www.twitter.com/DonLorenzo20 ) started doing walk-outs (100 or so a day), and really have managed my time more efficiently. I'm beginning to see the results in the way that I am respected as a business, and that people understand that I have a valueable service to offer. I really work hard for my clients and I really want to make their dreams of homeownership a Reality...so for the REAL fans...more about my music...

I really have decided to put actively pursuing my music on hold. I think that a jack of all trades can never really be good at one. That being said, I have delved pretty much head first into Real Estate...but don't worry this will definitely help me acquire the resources (financially and socially) to get where I need to be in music. I have really been writing things here and there, and I have seen my work mature as have I. It's going to be really tough when I put out my first album because I really want everyone to see the growth that I have experienced in the last few years or so. Other thoughts on my mind? Well I am really remaining positive and watching my thoughts, certain things are very hard to keep out of my mind. If you haven't read in my earlier posts, my father died this year...and so this will be the first Father's Day sunday June 14,2009 that I don't have him to celebrate with. We always went out to Coco's and BlackAngus, and really enjoyed ourselves no matter how upset we were at the time lol. I know that he is proud of me, and I am working hard on making him even more proud. He got a chance to see the beginning of his son becoming a man, starting with the death of my mom, and me going to college subsequently getting my Real Estate license..and then hearing the first couple of songs I wrote and recorded. Along with that thought the week after that June 21, 2009 will mark 5 years since my mother passed away. I can't do it. I mean I know that I can, but just that thought alone weighs so heavily on my soul. I try not to think about them, but I think that that would be doing a disservice to their memory and all that they mean to me. It's really tough finding a balance between being really emotive and feeling exactly how it makes me feel when I think about it without restraint, and then becoming numb and dedicated myself to my Real Estate and my music. Music provides such a release on that aspect, because I can just write it and sing it and get all the emotions out...I love you both, and I know that you are really proud of me. I dedicate my first million-dollar sale, and my first grammy award to both of you I know that I will have them both soon, and it's because of the man who you raised as a boy. Just a thought I wanted to get out...I really have been blessed. Thank You Loretta for loving me no matter what and accepting that we do things so differently. You are a great example of how much value a loving heart can add to another person's life. I love you sis...and my aunt Teresa. Who knows where I would be had you not taken me in, and refused to let me throw my life away. I owe so much to you, and I know your big sis is proud of you and what you have done with her son. (Why do those sound like shout outs?) Hahah..Back to work.

It's Been Awhile

2009-06-04T15:41:00.000-07:00

So I've Realized that I haven't blogged in quite a while...I don't really know why that is, I have been on Twitter the whole time! I should have been blogging about my Blackberry issues, but at this point in my life I really choose not to focus on the negative things. Well this last week has been really great/hectic. In the office we have been preparing for the LAX Chamberfest, which is a great event that allows all the business within in the chamberfest to "show what they've got". I really have nejoyed being a member of the LAX Coastal Chamber because it really has opened my mind and my business experience to encompass networking like I haven't really before. After attending their mixers and different luncheons I have been inspired to really self-promote. I have read several different Real Estate Blogs/Bios/Columns (not to mention the fact that my Broker is always talking about the value of "word of mouth" and becoming well known within your particular farm area). I think that it's extremely important for today's businessperson to talk about themselves and the type of service that they offer. I've been told many times before that "you don't know what you don't know" and to that degree, we do not know which people are in need of our business, and a lot of the time they do not know that we can be a resource to them. Having become a Realtor@, I have the advantage of wearing my occupation as a PIN on my shirt, which let's people know that I am a part of an association that adheres to strict ethics and values in the Real Estate Profession. Well, I'm off to go to the LAX Chamber of Commerce and acquire new business contacts/clients and learn even more about becoming the TOP Executive.

Thoughts become things

2009-05-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

So lately I've been experiencing this internal "tug-o-war" with my drives, passions, feelings and commitments. I love music (singing and writing) to death, it is what frees me, it is what sets me apart from everyone, it is what I want do to with my life. I want to go back to school. I enjoy learning, I'm skilled at studying, and I believe that a man must constantly sharpen his mind. I love selling Real Estate, it uses all of my natural talents (communication, negotiation, organization, and marketing)....But as it says in the Bible somewhere (I'm not going to pretend to know, I've read the whole thing, that's good enuff, right?) " a man cannot serve two masters" and it rings true today. How can you be good at anything if you are doing everything? Sure I'm a good singer, I'm a good student, and I am a good Realtor, but I want to be great. I want to be world renowned, and being a Jack of all trades is not the way to get there. I once heard that a decision acted upon with complete certainty is the single most powerful instrument in changing your life which is right in accord with the fact that "What you think about, you bring about". When I woke up this morning I decided that I was going to work at being the best, an expert, if you will at all three of this things. Seems contradictory right? No, because I will put them in an order. At this time in my life I will work on being an Expert Real Estate Agent. This was my original plan, as this will secure me the funds, the business acumen and the maturity that I will need when fame comes knocking at my door. I have also decided that I do not HAVE to go to LMU. My disqualification from there wasn't a failure it was a stepping stone. I've recently read a quote that helped me come to terms with a lot of the "mistakes" that I have made in the past: "Experience is not what happens to a man; it s what a man does with what happens to him"-Aldous Huxley. wow. Feeling very introspective right now. What have I done with what's happened to me? Hmm there's something for me to think, and subsequently blog about. I will post these findings later this evening.

Thoughts

2009-05-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

Damn, I was going over my Calendar for June...and that date stuck out at me...June 21...I can't believe that it will be 5 years since my Mom passed away. WTF? And my dad died this year..Within 4 years of eachother my parents died. I'm still not 21. I know that these things happen, but this overwhelming sadness swept my being. I will not allow this to defeat me, I will not allow my sadness to overwhelm me, this motivates me to become the man whom the were fashioning me to be sooner than later.

A simple act of kindness

2009-05-15T22:10:00.000-07:00

It's pretty amazing how a kind word or gesture can change the course of your moods...I was feeling totally down due to a series of unfortunate events and I looked on my Twitter, and there a kind set of words typed before me...It filled me with such a brightness, that the darkness seems so small...I must continue to guard my feelings and my words with all my might and PUSH forward, knowing that the greatness within me is burgeoning to the surface, prepare to explore. Can someone say Supernova? That word has several meanings with me...what's yours?

FML!

2009-05-15T18:46:00.000-07:00

There is no one to blame for the way your life goes, and that becomes clearer and more apparent to me every single day...

Never Giving Up

2009-05-13T11:11:00.000-07:00

No matter how hard it gets, I will continue to push forward knowing that "It's always darkest before the dawn" (thanks Dad). You see, the mind is an amazing thing capable of creation or desctruction. "The Power of Life and Death is in the tongue"-The Bible. These words have never rang so true in my life, you have got to speak what you want into your existence. Guard your words, and remember that you are the master of your destiny. Today I will resolve to only say positive things and allow positivity to engulf my life. Never will I ever let anyone dictate my feelings or change who I am as a person. I am a naturally caring, loving dude who really wants great things for all. I will speak only in what is beneficial, and let the bad fall away as dead petals on a rose.

Spiritual Awakening...

2009-05-12T12:39:00.000-07:00

So I'm not sure if that title best suits, how I am feeling, but I felt it was appropriate. I am really beginning to experience "hunger paigns" for God if you will. For the first time in my life I can honestly look at my life and say that I wasn't putting him first for a while. I am doing my best to move back into His rhythm, and to get him first....but I feel a little behind. Most notably I haven't gone to church as often as I used to (Wonder how many times if at all I attended Mass this year?). I know that I need Him, and it's not because of hard times or a crisis, I just need that extra loving grace that only knowing Him adds to one's life. Starting today I will take little steps (Thanks St. Therese of Lisieux) to bring me back to God's favor. I feel the spark of my life has slightly diminished without sharing God with others. I want to be a testimony to His greatness in all that I do be it music or Real Estate and let His light shine through me....

Keeping your head Up

2009-05-11T15:38:00.000-07:00

It's not an easy thing to do. There are tons of naysayers, and just life situations that would tempt you to believe that you are less than you are, that you are less capable than you are, and less loved than you truly are. There are times when you must search the fabric of your person and ask yourself "what truly makes me happy right now". Sometimes it won't be that deep, it could be a tv show, a particular painting or a food. Sometimes it could mean that must completely alter the current course your life is taking and flee with all that you have, if only your sanity, towards that new direction. The key to being happy lies in the seconds and milliseconds of your life. Are you doing something right now that gives you pleasure? If you are not, what could you be doing, or how can you look at what you are doing (if it is a necessity, such as work) in order to be happy? If it is work, you're happy that you're supporting yourself and making ends meet ( or attempting to). Listen to music, write some ideas down, search YouTube for inspirational messages, do whatever it takes to keep your vibes high and your doubt of yourself and your self-worth and success low. After all, we are all worth something, we all have a uniqueness to give others...Find yours, use it, and give it to others.

Getting the Hang of it

2009-05-07T12:27:00.000-07:00

heh, this blogging thing really isn't so bad... I've actually been updating it regularly...nothing particularly new in my life. I am finding myself become re-acquainted with my cousins, which is something for which I am extremely grateful. I hung out with my cousin Jamecca last week..although I know I could not have been so much fun (going through nicotine withdrawals, yikes!) but I guess the good thing was that I learned that I could stop at any given moment. It might go without saying that I have since started again, but in "moderation"..yeah I know, but we all have our habits ;). I enjoyed hanging out with her, but sometimes I wonder if people get tired of me? Knowing what I know now about how the mind works (mainly in respect to the Law of Attraction) those very thoughts and insecurities were the undoing of any relationship (romantic, familial, friends) that I have lost in the past. Does that excuse the people who have wronged/abandoned me? No, that can't be so, but it does however allow me see that I continued to read over the sheet music to the sad solo part I played while the Titanic sank. haha. But anyways life is really going great for me, I am so blessed with the opportunity to have a clear mind and to be able to visualize and obtain my goals through focus. I'm still a work in progress....On a side note, I went back to the studio where I did my rough demo, and I think I was being wheeled and dealed into another situation. I'm going to hope that things go well and trust that my vibes will align with what's right. I am really looking forward to recording new music and finally getting out there again, and I am definitely looking forward to all the great business that is flowing my way in Real Estate. Getting my grown man on, and getting on that Mogul Status....Here's what I've been thinking lately "You may not be able to judge a book by its cover, but you can get a damn good idea from what section its in" -L'aurence Durr. Don't know if it made sense, but I think I'm onto something

Mariah Carey and Life

2009-05-04T12:35:00.000-07:00

Gosh Man...Mariah Carey's music is so wonderful..I mean if you really really listen to any of her songs, you hear a deep complexity about them. She nails things so much that you only can't help but feel her and know exactly how she was feeling. You really have to listen to that "Breakdown" song to really know that she is the Epitome of Recording Artist. She is what the profession is made for, there will never be another her...ever

Music.

2009-05-02T11:18:00.000-07:00

So I've been having a great time with my cousin James lately. This dude is so brilliant, so insightful and it's really cool not to feel alone in your thoughts. eh, just had to get that out. So anyways, countdown til the big day. I am going to win. I'm watching what I eat, and staying out of smoky environments for a LONG time. at least until the performance. I am drinking tons of water...I didnt get much sleep in the last 3 days ( 6hrs) and I know that is bad for my voice...especially 'cause I was on a whole different tip last nite and started listening to the song "Breakdown" by Mariah Carey. If you haven't heard it, it's the perfect song in every sense of the word, including video. I even called someone who I've missed for the longest...but I don't know how things will turn out with us..yeah, I really and just trying to focus on the two most important things to me right now: The Office and My music...I'm wondering if I have to be all in one or the other...for now I will just work at the office during the day, and then take time to practice my vocals in the early morning and late nites... Thank You God for this gift of music, please help me nourish it.

Vocal Preparation

2009-04-30T17:03:00.000-07:00

So I'm going to be performing at the Palmer room June 1, 2009 at 8pm. It's really exciting. I will be performing some new tracks that I've recently Recorded. All of May is going to be devoted to my preparation for that. Practicing EVERYDAY, working out and drinking a gallon of water a day to keep lean and hydrated. This is the life I want to lead! I've already won that competition, I just have to wait til the 1st to collect m prize.

Hahah LMao

2009-04-28T16:30:00.001-07:00

I had two Jack-in-the-box Tacos...and what? I'm not going to post that on Twitter yet.

The Fast: Reconsidered

2009-04-28T14:03:00.000-07:00

So the day after my fast is kind of like a feast day of sorts...I know that I will want to eat drink and be merry..What should I Do? I'm really thinking that I should go a head and break it now then re-start it after that day. I'm pretty happy with the results (5lbs in 3 days)..and I am not hungry at all..even knowing that El Pollo Loco is giving out free chicken..I'm really excited at this new willpower I have found.

Lemonade Diet Day 3 Morning/2

2009-04-28T10:30:00.001-07:00

Yeah, so these cramps are really getting on my nerves, I didn't have any tea this morning so I really don't know why they are acting up so much. Well I am still trying to remain focused and just concentrate on growing my business and making a comfortable lifestyle. The other thing that has been on my mind lately is about being more professional. Now that I have begun to network and meet people in order to advance in my field, I'm thinking that I should either change my Facebook or Myspace or maybe create another so that I can maintain my other pages. I'm really not sure how I should go about this but I think that I need to just reconfigure the image that I have out there in the internet world. Who knows tho? I really need to get my marketing back up to where it sued to be so that I can get more listings, and get more deals.....

Lemonade Diet Day 3 Morning

2009-04-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

Okay, so at this point I've experienced some stomach cramps, and they are pretty annoying. I was thinking about eating last night, but of course I didn't. I noticed that I am no longer eliminating solids to put it quite plainly lol. I do feel much more clear-headed. This morning I woke up before 8 and didn't have anyone attempt to get me up or anything. I am a little burnt on this lemonade, but hey, there's only a week left. I think that I need to increase my water intake...I am peeing alot, but for some reason, I don't think I'm getting the amount of water that I need to be getting...what's really got me buggin is the thought that I might never eat meat again. To be honest, I feel like I want to be a vegetarian after this (definitely NOT a vegan, more power to those who are) and really watch the products that I take into my body. As a side note, I've thought about stripping after this lol I know that sounds ridiculous..okay so I have to get some work done and tweet about this so I will ttyl prolly in the afternoon.

Lemoade Diet Stuff

2009-04-27T19:01:00.001-07:00

So yeah, it hasn't been bad at all. I mean sometimes I think about food, but I haven't been hungry. I've read some negative things about the Diet, but I know that as long as I am thinking positive things about it, it will go positively. I'm expecting to get more mental clarity, and yeah I want to drop a size or something. I'm wondering if I should hit the gym today. Don't think that it can really hurt, it can only help. I am so mad at myself for getting a 24hr membership and not going everyday. But I guess being more realistic is going 3 times a week.

Morning Two Master Cleanse

2009-04-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

Okay, so everything seems to be going great. No Cravings, not tired, just really ready to enjoy life. I am definitely going to continue vibing on getting a Record Deal, getting a new home and new car this year. The thing on my mind right now is getting all these deals closed. I want to make sure that I have tons of income. Right now, I think the most believeable amount for me is something like 20k a month, or at least a 100k/yr. I want to be a Millionaire before I'm 21, so I hope that I can get that belief going.

The Master Cleanse

2009-04-26T14:59:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I don't have much time to blog, but I finally started the Master Cleanse today, I am going to go see how much I weigh and then report that later maybe from my phone! So I got all the ingredients (thank God for Trader Joe's) and I just made my first bottle. This is really an exciting time for me, and I am hoping that this fast will bring me closer to God (I know I shouldn't be worried about weight when I do that at the same time, but I am human), closer to the body that I want, and definitely further away from some health issues that I have been experiencing. Well I feel great now ( I did have two tortilla chips with salsa this morning before I decided to fast) and I am looking forward to getting better and better. I know that my vibrations will be higher and that I will achieve a greater success with my newfound mental clarity. Hmmm, I'm just so excited that I really don't know what to blog, my mind is racing a mile a minute. I know it will clear up my voice, and get rid of the deterioration that all the smoke in my lungs must have caused. Looking forward to getting rid of this belly in time for summer...and jut life dammit!! Haha.. I will keep you guys updated on each and every moment, craving, and benefit that I experience.

Much Love.

Life Learned Lessons

2009-04-24T22:44:00.000-07:00

People People....I don't want anyone to have to go through what I did. I wont get into details about how hard my life was and whatnot but that's what it was...The particular instance that's got me a lil down now is how Freddy Colon aka Colby O' Donis' dad fucked me over. I was young, naive and I had a dream. Please remember to always get contracts, always have someone with you and always think about things. What a sheisty bastard...man I called him tonight and asked bout completing our project ( which I paid 6000+) for and he said that I would have to pay Colby 20k because he is signed....thats some bullshit man...I cant even finish typing. You will see me at the top of the charts in the next year. Watch

Longtime

2009-04-22T16:59:00.000-07:00

Okay....I am recommitting myself to this blog NO MATTER WHAT. Although not many people read it now. Okay, so here's the deal. I'm really working hard at the office and everything is going great. I just need to adjust my spending habits so that I don't keep spending more than I what I can afford. I kno that this sounds ridiculous but I am thinking about becoming a stripper, I have though this way before, but only when I feel like I'm running out of money. Let's be honest, I DO NOT have the body of a stripper. I'm 5'5 212lbs. I'm definitely not fat, but I'm thick.. Unlike chick stripperz, who I like to see a little meaty, I doubt a female would want to pay for someone who's not in 6pack shape...so what should I do?

Deviation from Plans

2009-03-18T16:28:00.000-07:00

I know that I was supposed to continue the last post, but to write all that out write now would be mentally and phsycially draining..soo I just want to talk about some positive thoughts, ambtions and goals that I'm going to realize by the end of the year.

I will be purchasing a home, I'm not quite sure where yet, but I know that I want my own place. I'm thinking somehwere like Inglewood, Ladera or Baldwin Hills. Something that is over 25oosqft.
I will be the Top Producing agent in my Real Estate office.
I will have at least $100,000 in my bank account by my 21st birthday, I will be driving a brand new '09 or '10 not sure what model yet, but I'm really liking the Cadillac SRx, or something mercedes...you know haha!,
I'm going to be healthy, my ideal weight being something like 175.
I will have a 5 octave vocal range
I will attend Church regularly
I will be in a great relationship with woman who is spiritual, educated and who deeply cares for me.

Yeah I'm looking forward to these things, as it will be wonderful when they are here. So there they are, I know them, I feel them.....and I have them.

What it do?

2009-03-18T10:16:00.000-07:00

What it do blogosphere...I don't really know if people are following me yet haha but whatever. So..crazy times crazy times. I just got to work so I wont be able to go into too much detail because I really have to get crackin on these deals and whatnot. So I think I've been telling you guys about how I have been recording and everything, and how I am super pursuing my Dreams in the light of my Father's passing. Well, all of that took an interesting turn. So After this "manager" Isaac asked me to pick him up and take him to his car (which he was late waking up, and had me sitting in front of his house for an hour, and got to the mechanic and sat there for a couple hours) we were late for our appointment with FatherMC and his "label". Things went pretty well there, I was watching some chick named Kelly go through the ups and downs of trying to hit a note perfectly for the record (which in these times is kind of a breath of fresh air because EVERYONE autotunes) and talking to FatherMC whilst he chainsmoked. We were there for a couple 0f hours and I thought Isaac would never play my songs! I was growing extremely anxious and really just wanted to talk to MC on the low and work out a deal. If I didn't tell you, I was there under the guise that I was just some exec from Isaac's label who accompanied him. Finally the moment of truth: MC listens to the artists on Isaac's computer and skips through all except one. He says "yo this guy is good, I fux with that" my heart races, do I blurt out its me and throw myself at fame? No, I remain reserved. " Damn, this dude can sing, his production is all f**d up, Did he write this? This is a hit record, this sh** is gonna be HUGE" what do I say? What do I say...my mind raced: "yes I wrote it, I write everything! Do I say I co-produced it? Hmm maybe not he said he didn't like that"...thinking to myself. Isaac is smiling he mouths " you got it", then turns to MC and says " This is the guy" MC replies "This quiet Mfer right here? Nigga that's you?"..."Yes" i squeaked. "Okay, Okay we gotta work on something, cuz I fux with that" He makes some calls to Harvey (of making the band fame) and Diddy (needs no introduction) and talks about a $1.5million deal.. This is it!!! or is it?...I'll post what happened next later.

I twittered Mariah Carey.....

2009-03-13T16:00:00.001-07:00

So...today I got a direct message on Twitter from Mariah Carey. It was truly the thrill of my day! It's tough sharing little victories or excitements with people who aren't in a positive mindset. Mind you, people know how much I value Mariah and her music, the kind of responses I was getting were like "Hmm...Okay..." and "Do you really think that's her, c'mon", "I'm sure her assistant does all her 'twittering'"...but hey that's life. I have to keep positivity in and around me and I know that great things will continue to happen. Okay so I got my songs back 2days ago..I really did enjoy listening to them, they weren't mind-blowingly awesome sounding..but they definitely provided the foundation or that base that I feel a Record company would look for in signing an artist. The lyrics were catchy, memorable, it was pretty well written, the vocals were decent, and the songs sound fairly well produced. So here we are. I'm supposed to be sitting down with FatherMC and the Engineer tomorrow to listen to my songs and critique them...I really have to continue to monitor what I eat. I really want to go on a 48hr fast and just clean my system out. I want to then begin to incorporate more organic foods into my diet and really get a clear mindset...So I will. I will begin this fast in the next 3 days! lol. Why is food so tied to celebrations? Hahah whatever. I'm so ready for positivity to rain down on me, it's been a long time coming, and I have been really just knowing that I was meant to do great things and that I would be an asset to people rather than a burden...but it's too early in the day to explore the depths of my mind and emotions, plus when I get REALLY famous really soon, I don't want to be interviewed about these ramblings on my blog haha.

Rockin Robin (tweet tweet)

2009-03-11T19:51:00.000-07:00

Okay..So Here is my second posting here. Last night Isaac ( The owner and Enginerr at JazzinWorld) called me at 11pm while I was in the bed and told me that the vocals on a couple of songs I recorded didnt sound as strong as we needed them to be...What did I do? I jumped up and drove out to the Valley to finish recording all the songs, because I knew that I could do them better than I had previously...I didnt get home until about 3:30am...all the while knowing that I would have to be in the office by 8. Why? Becuase I love music and I am dedicated to myself now. I don't have a Mom and I don't have a Dad to make sure that I'm going on the right path...Yeah I do have Tia, Retta and Chico..but you know what i mean? I dont have that philisophical tie to the world that makes me feel as if I have a direct person telling me what I can and cannot do unquestionably. Anyways, I thought that I would share that bit of information with you all. I am completely obssessed with Twitter lol. I think Mariah Carey used one of the DMS I sent her for her nightly "name that tune" feautre...such a cool chick, I'm still kinda pissed that I didn't marry her, but hey she's happy right? haha..anyways I'm supposed to finally be getting the trax from Isaac tonight through e-mail. I'm really excited to hear the songs completely mixed and mastered. It's pretty cool you know? I know that I've started working on this Demo thing a hundred times before, but this time feels so much more fulfilling. I know that once Universal hears my music they will love it. I need to schedule a Photoshoot this week....Hmm it's really kind of....I don't really know the words for it...disappointing maybe? I spent some time focusing my efforts and losing weight (40lbs to be exact in less than 3 months) and I went an gained 15 of it back!! Damn that sucks. So for this photoshoot I'm going to go on the 48hour diet. I know, I know, it's a fad and it's all kinds or crazy or whatever, but hey I know what I am capable of...I feel like I will be twittering ALL Day while i am on this diet but whatever..I'm kind of in the mood to write a song, but I cant really get it to release..it's stuck in my emotions and I dont know where to begin....but maybe I will soon. I need to clean my car out, organize my desk and find some way to not get depressed at the fact that my loser Uncle has nothing better to do than to evict me. Yeah I hope this gets out when I'm famous and he feels bad for all the terrible things he did, and who he is..but anyways that chain of thought sparked another thought I've had previously...I think people get famous or want fame to fill an emotional/psychological void...What do you think? I know I have a need to be recognized and Loved unconditionally, something I think fans would do. Is that crazy? I dunno...well anyways I'm off to twitter...
OH..Not before I speak my intentions aloud: I want to be debt-free in the next month, I want a MacBook Pro and I want a SmartPhone...something like the BlackJackII, Blackberry Storm or something at least with a KEYBOARD! haha, I also want to move into a new place. Staying in the same place where my Mom, Dad, Grandmom and Grandad lived is hard, because they are all dead..hmm. ::trying to stay positive and not depressed:: What it do life? haha

What's going On?

2009-03-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

Hey Bloggers.
I've had a blog a couple of times, but it's kind of like a plant, and when you don't water it, it dies lol....I just got a twitter a couple of weeks ago, so I decided that I was responsible enough to have a blog again. In addition to that, I don't really have a diary so this thing will probably function as that. Want some backgoung information? I'm 20 years old, live in Los Angeles, and I want to be a Recording Artist...real original huh? Yeah i know. I'm currently working as a Real Estate agent (yeah I know) and I have a twin sister and an Older sister... so many crazy things are going on right now. It's quite ridiculous. Current Mindset: My Father died Feb 3, and my uncle is trying to evict me. I quit my part time Job at Macy's and started recording a demo with Jazzin World Productions. So here's to stardom!