The Update

The Background:
So some time has passed since my last post about what I was doing with this amazing life I've been given...and I have to say it's had its ups and downs. I have since begun living at Jovenes Inc. which is a shelter aimed at ending homelessness and preparing young men aged 18-24 with the tools that they need to become productive members of society. I have also begun working as a security professional with Universal Protection Service. All in all I've saved $1,700.00 towards moving to my own apartment. How's the music? Well it's been slow. Although I started out on fire quickly writing and recording 2 monster tracks "Welcome" and "Change" my fervor has trailed off in favor of getting my home life situation. That being said, there's a war going on right now and I'm not sure what side I'm on. The truth is, because you know that's all I can give you, I've been slipping majorly. I think that because I'm the greatest CONvincer the game has seen that I can get away with murder (police who will read this in the future, this does not count as an admission and I'd like to motion that this be stricken from evidence as it was clearly written while I faced hardship and emotional distress). Mind you, that this is nearly a 100% true, what I can't get away with is leaving lose ends. To that effect, I'm challenging myself. Today being Mardi Gras, means that the beginning of Lent is at hand. Although I haven't been going to church regularly (Shout Out to JC, I see you) I feel particularly inspired to take my spirituality back to its roots in Catholicism where order and regalia abound. In order to participate in the new life that Jesus will bring, I am choosing to sacrifice: Cigarettes, Weed, Alcohol, Meat and at least 2 hours a day towards God. What could I possibly mean by that? I mean that I am purposefully rejecting the aforementioned items and implementing the previously allotted time to just be in a state of gratitude for my existence. I spend so much time attempting to amass great fortune, realize lofty ideals and solve the world's problems without taking enough time to just experience it all, and that is precisely what I will do.

Right now: I'm gathering a small team of musically inclined individuals who will help me create the mixtape of my dreams. It was an important realization that I did could utilize the help of others in the actualization of my goal. The death of Whitney Houston has also inpsired me to continue developing my voice. "What life is there to live, If I squander the gifts I've been given to give" I am also working to get right back into the Real Estate grind, my mouthpiece is too fucking cold not to be making money. I'm also reading "Rich Dad Poor Day" by Rob Kiosaki in order to get a greater understanding of how ideals relate to money and I found an interesting quote that I read previously in the book "The Game of Life and how to play it" "Money accentuates the mental patterns you have in your head"...boy is that true.

Shit Session:
I hate the fact that everything that I do is scrutinized. Yes I know it was Uncle Ben (not the rice guy) that said "With Great Power comes great responsibility" but damn. Whoever the fuck said freedom isn't free (Hitchcock) wasn't lying. The way that I attempt to frame this experience is training me for what life will be like in the public eye. People will have nearly 100% access to my whereabouts and who withs and although there is no shame in my game, some shit I get over waaay too quickly to want to discuss again. Eh C'est la vie.