The Update.

So it's been quite sometime since I posted on this site! I'm glad to be back. Lately my life has been very productive. It's seen a newfound interested in nature, beauty, my careers and love. I'm riding high on the fact that I just closed two deals in one week, what a blessing. Real Estate has been going exceptionally well for me, I've been able to find a balance between work, friends, and my intellectual pursuits. What puzzles me now, is being able to help my friends and family. Should I rush into playing captain save 'em again, or should I continue to stay in my own lane and ensure that I have the basic necessities for life? I'm really torn between those things. It seems that whenever I deliniate from the idea of getting myself to a stable place before I can look over and help others, that things go wrong for me. What must I change about my perception in order to make this work? I can't stand to see anyone hurting, and it's much more painful for those I care about. One part of me feels like I have no children, and thus no one is my responsibility, however the other portion feels that I have a duty even a moral obligation if you will, to ensure that my immediate family is taken care of. My aunt always tells me to PRO & CON a situation out, but in this one I always feel as if the PRO of Dimi, my family member, getting her life straight outweighs any con that might fall on me. In really looking at this I have to wonder if it's working at all... For someone who is as dead set as Dimi on not releasing ANY smidget of control in her life, when most of it is blatantly out of control, is puzzling to me. Rather than allow herself to be helped into what could be an exponentially better situation, she would rather hold onto where she is now. That's definitely her perogative, what I'm faced with now is a decision. Do I continue to reach out, even take matters into my own hands and wonder if I'll breakthough? Keeping on this path seems to be a great way to burn out...I've been there before, and like a Phoenix risen from that. I've had many do overs in life, and like the late great Michael Jackson said "This is It". I won't continue to kill myself, and by the grace of God come back, only to do it all over again. I won't. Well bloggers, I've got to read