Ehh

So I haven't blogged in a minute. I've been talking to various family members about how I can move past this plateau in life and breakthrough to where I belong. Most of what I've been hearing has had to do with self-discipline and budgeting. I'm really beginning to take all this information to heart and understand that it's time to grow up. Granted, i've felt like an adult, at least emotionally since my Mother passed away, and in practice since I left for Universtiy in 2006. THere are so many things weighing heavily on my heart with regards to my accomplishments, but I'm putting all those things away and going forward with life. One thing I have been thinking about is splitting my blogs...but I simply ( I was gonna put here, don't have enough time) but the truth is that I do have time, I just have to make sure that what I'm doing with my time is beneficial for me. One of the reasons, I make time for this blog is because it's definitely a release for me. Even if NO ONE reads this, it does me good because I'm able to refer to different points in life and see how I've grow, or see where I can use some work.

My performance

I have to say that in reviewing my performance as of late, I really need to step my game up. I feel as if I'm doing alot but things are breaking through so fast...I dont really even know if I should be typing about this here...so I'm gonna think about some things and get work done and then come back and type some more....

Strive for Outstanding.

Remember in grade school how in addition to the letter grade you received that corresponded to the actual material, you received a grade on quality and effort? E=Excellent, O=Outstanding, S=Satisfactory and U=Unsatisfactory. What if you had to grade your progress, efforts, and overall quality of life/work. What would you give yourself? Okay, what would you do to improve on that grade? These are the things that have been on my mind lately.......

On Sunday, we had our annual Community Appreciation Day at Burton Chace Park in Marina Del Rey. I have to say that it went really well, there were tons of people the food was great and it was a wonderful atmosphere. While I was there I was talking to Sharon, who is an A&R rep with Universal Music took some time out to listen to my songs. It was so great to hear someone in the industry say that I was a good writer, and that she "could definitely hear this song on the radio". She also told me that she wanted me to finish it and let her hear it, so I definitely have to tweak it a bit and finish it sometime this week. Other things on my plate this week? I enrolled in a couple of courses at West Los Angeles college....just some online courses that I can try to dedicate some time to and fit inbetween working. I am going to focus and really see these courses through to an A. I know that I am capable of doing that, although I feel a bit rusty when it comes to schoolwork, I think I should just take some time out and "getter done" lol. I also spent the night at one of my best friend's apartment at Loyola Marymount. Kinda got me thinking about the college life again, and thinking about how everyone but me will be graduating this year. That's a little depressing, but at the same time I am doing well in my field and I am making a name for myself in Real Estate and music. Sometimes I think that I have to be famous just to offset these feelings of inadequacy with regards to school. Who knows? I always feel like I should be doing more, and that I should be doing a million things to get to this great place in life, but lately select literature and my gut feeling have been telling me otherwise. I feel that if I focus really hard on one thing and really concentrate my focus and effort towards it, that I will dominate whatever I choose....Ahh new subject

So I have an offer in on a property that my buyer's really like. I've been meditating on this offer being accepted for the past five days and we are going to get our response today. I'm really excited because it's a great property that is very fitting for these clients. I've also been working on this short sale that I have, and it's kind of a pain. These banks don't know regarding short sales, and while updating the system all previous paperwork was lost". What a crock. You mean to tell me that I have to fax millions of pages back to you, that were already processed, and we have an approval pending on the first loan for the 8th? Yikes. This sounds like it's go time again, and I'll have to not see the sun for a couple of weeks....

Well this week I will do my best to be on point with everything and to prove to myself that I am the best at what I do...My little cousin's school motto is "Strive For Excellence", well from now on, I'm going to "Strive for Outstanding".... Excellence can be defined as " very good of its kind. Valuable in quality" where as outstanding is "standing out from a group. Marked by eminence and distinction".