Thoughts become things

So lately I've been experiencing this internal "tug-o-war" with my drives, passions, feelings and commitments. I love music (singing and writing) to death, it is what frees me, it is what sets me apart from everyone, it is what I want  do to with my life.  I want to go back to school. I enjoy learning, I'm skilled at studying, and I believe that a man must constantly sharpen his mind. I love selling Real Estate, it uses all of my natural talents (communication, negotiation, organization, and marketing)....But as it says in the Bible somewhere (I'm not going to pretend to know, I've read the whole thing, that's good enuff, right?) " a man cannot serve two masters" and it rings true today. How can you be good at anything if you are doing everything? Sure I'm a good singer, I'm a good student, and I am a good Realtor, but I want to be great. I want to be world renowned, and being a Jack of all trades is not the way to get there. I once heard that a decision acted upon with complete certainty is the single most powerful instrument in changing your life which is right in accord with the fact that "What you think about, you bring about". When I woke up this morning I decided that I was going to work at being the best, an expert, if you will at all three of this things. Seems contradictory right? No, because I will put them in an order. At this time in my life I will work on being an Expert Real Estate Agent. This was my original plan, as this will secure me the funds, the business acumen and the maturity that I will need when fame comes knocking at my door. I have also decided that I do not HAVE to go to LMU. My disqualification from there wasn't a failure it was a stepping stone. I've recently read a quote that helped me come to terms with a lot of the "mistakes" that I have made in the past: "Experience is not what happens to a man; it s what a man does with what happens to him"-Aldous Huxley. wow. Feeling very introspective right now. What have I done with what's happened to me? Hmm there's something for me to think, and subsequently blog about. I will post these findings later this evening.