Deviation from Plans

I know that I was supposed to continue the last post, but to write all that out write now would be mentally and phsycially draining..soo I just want to talk about some positive thoughts, ambtions and goals that I'm going to realize by the end of the year.

• I will be purchasing a home, I'm not quite sure where yet, but I know that I want my own place. I'm thinking somehwere like Inglewood, Ladera or Baldwin Hills. Something that is over 25oosqft.
• I will be the Top Producing agent in my Real Estate office.
• I will have at least $100,000 in my bank account by my 21st birthday, I will be driving a brand new '09 or '10 not sure what model yet, but I'm really liking the Cadillac SRx, or something mercedes...you know haha!,
• I'm going to be healthy, my ideal weight being something like 175.
• I will have a 5 octave vocal range
• I will attend Church regularly
• I will be in a great relationship with woman who is spiritual, educated and who deeply cares for me.

Yeah I'm looking forward to these things, as it will be wonderful when they are here. So there they are, I know them, I feel them.....and I have them.

What it do?

What it do blogosphere...I don't really know if people are following me yet haha but whatever. So..crazy times crazy times. I just got to work so I wont be able to go into too much detail because I really have to get crackin on these deals and whatnot. So I think I've been telling you guys about how I have been recording and everything, and how I am super pursuing my Dreams in the light of my Father's passing. Well, all of that took an interesting turn. So After this "manager" Isaac asked me to pick him up and take him to his car (which he was late waking up, and had me sitting in front of his house for an hour, and got to the mechanic and sat there for a couple hours) we were late for our appointment with FatherMC and his "label". Things went pretty well there, I was watching some chick named Kelly go through the ups and downs of trying to hit a note perfectly for the record (which in these times is kind of a breath of fresh air because EVERYONE autotunes) and talking to FatherMC whilst he chainsmoked. We were there for a couple 0f hours and I thought Isaac would never play my songs! I was growing extremely anxious and really just wanted to talk to MC on the low and work out a deal. If I didn't tell you, I was there under the guise that I was just some exec from Isaac's label who accompanied him. Finally the moment of truth: MC listens to the artists on Isaac's computer and skips through all except one. He says "yo this guy is good, I fux with that" my heart races, do I blurt out its me and throw myself at fame? No, I remain reserved. " Damn, this dude can sing, his production is all f**d up, Did he write this? This is a hit record, this sh** is gonna be HUGE" what do I say? What do I say...my mind raced: "yes I wrote it, I write everything! Do I say I co-produced it? Hmm maybe not he said he didn't like that"...thinking to myself. Isaac is smiling he mouths " you got it", then turns to MC and says " This is the guy" MC replies "This quiet Mfer right here? Nigga that's you?"..."Yes" i squeaked. "Okay, Okay we gotta work on something, cuz I fux with that" He makes some calls to Harvey (of making the band fame) and Diddy (needs no introduction) and talks about a $1.5million deal.. This is it!!! or is it?...I'll post what happened next later.

I twittered Mariah Carey.....

So...today I got a direct message on Twitter from Mariah Carey. It was truly the thrill of my day! It's tough sharing little victories or excitements with people who aren't in a positive mindset. Mind you, people know how much I value Mariah and her music, the kind of responses I was getting were like "Hmm...Okay..." and "Do you really think that's her, c'mon", "I'm sure her assistant does all her 'twittering'"...but hey that's life. I have to keep positivity in and around me and I know that great things will continue to happen. Okay so I got my songs back 2days ago..I really did enjoy listening to them, they weren't mind-blowingly awesome sounding..but they definitely provided the foundation or that base that I feel a Record company would look for in signing an artist. The lyrics were catchy, memorable, it was pretty well written, the vocals were decent, and the songs sound fairly well produced. So here we are. I'm supposed to be sitting down with FatherMC and the Engineer tomorrow to listen to my songs and critique them...I really have to continue to monitor what I eat. I really want to go on a 48hr fast and just clean my system out. I want to then begin to incorporate more organic foods into my diet and really get a clear mindset...So I will. I will begin this fast in the next 3 days! lol. Why is food so tied to celebrations? Hahah whatever. I'm so ready for positivity to rain down on me, it's been a long time coming, and I have been really just knowing that I was meant to do great things and that I would be an asset to people rather than a burden...but it's too early in the day to explore the depths of my mind and emotions, plus when I get REALLY famous really soon, I don't want to be interviewed about these ramblings on my blog haha.

Rockin Robin (tweet tweet)

Okay..So Here is my second posting here. Last night Isaac ( The owner and Enginerr at JazzinWorld) called me at 11pm while I was in the bed and told me that the vocals on a couple of songs I recorded didnt sound as strong as we needed them to be...What did I do? I jumped up and drove out to the Valley to finish recording all the songs, because I knew that I could do them better than I had previously...I didnt get home until about 3:30am...all the while knowing that I would have to be in the office by 8. Why? Becuase I love music and I am dedicated to myself now. I don't have a Mom and I don't have a Dad to make sure that I'm going on the right path...Yeah I do have Tia, Retta and Chico..but you know what i mean? I dont have that philisophical tie to the world that makes me feel as if I have a direct person telling me what I can and cannot do unquestionably. Anyways, I thought that I would share that bit of information with you all. I am completely obssessed with Twitter lol. I think Mariah Carey used one of the DMS I sent her for her nightly "name that tune" feautre...such a cool chick, I'm still kinda pissed that I didn't marry her, but hey she's happy right? haha..anyways I'm supposed to finally be getting the trax from Isaac tonight through e-mail. I'm really excited to hear the songs completely mixed and mastered. It's pretty cool you know? I know that I've started working on this Demo thing a hundred times before, but this time feels so much more fulfilling. I know that once Universal hears my music they will love it. I need to schedule a Photoshoot this week....Hmm it's really kind of....I don't really know the words for it...disappointing maybe? I spent some time focusing my efforts and losing weight (40lbs to be exact in less than 3 months) and I went an gained 15 of it back!! Damn that sucks. So for this photoshoot I'm going to go on the 48hour diet. I know, I know, it's a fad and it's all kinds or crazy or whatever, but hey I know what I am capable of...I feel like I will be twittering ALL Day while i am on this diet but whatever..I'm kind of in the mood to write a song, but I cant really get it to release..it's stuck in my emotions and I dont know where to begin....but maybe I will soon. I need to clean my car out, organize my desk and find some way to not get depressed at the fact that my loser Uncle has nothing better to do than to evict me. Yeah I hope this gets out when I'm famous and he feels bad for all the terrible things he did, and who he is..but anyways that chain of thought sparked another thought I've had previously...I think people get famous or want fame to fill an emotional/psychological void...What do you think? I know I have a need to be recognized and Loved unconditionally, something I think fans would do. Is that crazy? I dunno...well anyways I'm off to twitter...
OH..Not before I speak my intentions aloud: I want to be debt-free in the next month, I want a MacBook Pro and I want a SmartPhone...something like the BlackJackII, Blackberry Storm or something at least with a KEYBOARD! haha, I also want to move into a new place. Staying in the same place where my Mom, Dad, Grandmom and Grandad lived is hard, because they are all dead..hmm. ::trying to stay positive and not depressed:: What it do life? haha

What's going On?

Hey Bloggers.
I've had a blog a couple of times, but it's kind of like a plant, and when you don't water it, it dies lol....I just got a twitter a couple of weeks ago, so I decided that I was responsible enough to have a blog again. In addition to that, I don't really have a diary so this thing will probably function as that. Want some backgoung information? I'm 20 years old, live in Los Angeles, and I want to be a Recording Artist...real original huh? Yeah i know. I'm currently working as a Real Estate agent (yeah I know) and I have a twin sister and an Older sister... so many crazy things are going on right now. It's quite ridiculous. Current Mindset: My Father died Feb 3, and my uncle is trying to evict me. I quit my part time Job at Macy's and started recording a demo with Jazzin World Productions. So here's to stardom!